a girl, a wholemeal bun and a cham ice

"tengok girl tu. sian je dia makan sorang"

"tengok budak tu, cool giler makan sorang"

"tengok budak pompuan tu, tak kesah pun makan sorang"

"tengok pompuan tu, shopping solo and cool giler lepak sorang2"

"tengok girl tu, dah la cantik, rileks je makan sorang"

"tak caya ada pompuan yg berani makan sorang. selamba je"

"pompuan tu tak kesah pun org tengok dia makan sorang.dia tak malu pun"

i guess these are the few remarks people make if they see a girl is eating by herself in a cafe.

i mean i do too but i always think that mesti sedey kan makan sorang? but now..i started to look at it on a different angle and the result is always the cool remarks. ok, adalah 1-2 yg remark sedih sbb muka dia nampak sedih mkn sorang. the rest tu muka diorang tak kesah pun makan sorang :)

Dear December

Dear December,
why do you come to see me?
i never notice you before
but few years lately
you always haunting me

Dear December,
why must you remind me of me?
i'm not finish with now yet,
you already knock on the next door
and the next door has a stair
in any other way i cannot keep away

Can i just stay just a little bit longer?
And take a turn on another corner
just round and round and just here

i wish December is longer
feeling the year is longer
so i can feel no barrier
and willingly open the door...

with my heart's content!

Only then i take the stairs excitingly
meeting the new me on January
as readily as ever
flown like a butterfly
and really freely fly


p/s i dont wanna grow up :(

mr photographer

it's human to have changes in liking while growing up. i don't like kuih bingka, i like it now. i don't like telur pindang at all, but i can eat telur pindang now.

i don't ever email people who i dunno who want to make friends with me. i don't reply it either let alone call or give my number.

now the change is the idea of adding new friends through friendster and facebook came along. i am a bit opened.

i found myself being more open and open...trying new things that i opposed in my earlier years..be it with food,colours,clothes. the subject gets heavier..til it comes to relationship with human in general or intimate.

i am a very private person...along the years i am now a private person. the 'very' is fading..i can share more with friends although 'more' to me is not actually 'more' to my friends. believe me friends, i am sharing my emotions and feeling to you more and more without you realizing it. you may say not enough, it is a huge share for me kawan.

even sharing my life in this blog is also a huge consideration everytime i want to post it. every entry i post is an entry that i don't mind people to know.

should i email this person for his nice gesture? if i were in my earlier years, i would definitely reject the idea of doing so without giving a thought. since it happens now, i surprise myself when i am considering the idea of emailing him just to acknowledge his gesture. nothing more. i am opening another inch now.

this guy had the courage to actually came to me and gave the pic he took of me which i think he took it on purpose. how many guys could have done that? not to me especially for i found guys are always intimidated by me. yes..i can feel if a guy is intimidated by me. or is it just me?

i will email for his nice and sweet act. that at least i can do. he better not hope more. good to have more friends though :)



p/s tapi aku suka aaron aziz look alike! :D

go karting @ shah alam

puas main tapi tak dapat masuk final hehe :p mcm2 taktik aku guna kat corner...berpusing pun ada. tapi aku takde langgar2 lah....accident biasa je ada..ada sampai 4 carts.

it was fun if it is for leisure...the event is for race. siap ada 12 minit practise, 12 minit qualifying and the top 16 racers with best lap will go to final. so semua racer macam dah terer...semua laju jek aku tengok. aku da rasa aku laju..tp diorang lagi laju :O

we had lunch and high tea. this kind of event is very well sponsored. i only paid for rm15 and got all these and a t-shirt. piala diorang best la...cantik dan besar...nak jugak! huhu

p/s faiz took pics on podium b4 games...and guess what he won the race! dia amik semua tuah :)

zzzz.. please

hello brain, boleh bg signal kat mata to tido? i know teh tarik force you to eyes wide open, but hey, body said tired..kesian kat dia.

all right..almost ngantuk..(it's working while i'm typing this)

night 3am and good morning 6.30am. i'm gonna be hell tomorrow. mana mau joget lagi...

bla bla bla...my writing gibberish.

over teh tarik chit chat

"ko makan ape tadi? tacos?" tanya aku.
"tacos? taco lah..." kata kwn nih..
"sebab ko mkn bnyk...tacos la...ada 's'" kata aku lagi hehe (at this moment, ayat cover or the word memang valid i dunno)
so aku sambung lagi..."ko makan kat mana?"
kata kwn ni "juscos" :D

bagus! haha gelak besar kitorang...but then a fren said that since makan kat satu tempat jusco je...so no 's' ye hehe

Elvira Arul @ No Black Tie

“Best giller!” it should be the tag line.

Elvira Arul performance memang giller best. (you will bump with the words a few time)
When she started singing…I was like “ mana selama ni aku dengar muzik?” Plg best aku dengar, ni 10 kali lagi best (over credit tak) but hey…mmg best ye.

Even though demam as what she claimed…but we can feel her fever :p hot hot.. she could still perform high pitch notes while sitting. The music? Toksah cakap lah…memang best giler gak :) Basis and drummer yg hensem; hehe fly and justin. Yg tak hensem lambat skit aku tangkap nama diorang… that would be the comical wan gigi and we call another one ‘adek kuhan’ hehe. He was praveen…nad je yg ingat…sbb dia check in guna iPhone. Praveen pun sama.And Wan gigi, looks lie our fren labu jugak :p

Aku memang groove to the music la…if only the crowd would be less shy, I would be groovier. Takkan aku sorang2 nak make noise….aku add noise boleh la…:p

Alvira said that night audience were shy. She on the other hands loves noise. Huhu
But still she perform apa? Giller best!

Masa break she went to all the tables and chit chattie with the audience and bila tiba meja kitorang….she asked “ you all kawan wan ke?”
Kenapa tak kawan fly? Haha

She loved nad’s tudung. Suka nad. Or lat?

But hey, I wanted to see the place but I got the outstanding performance from this group of people.

Mula2 aku memang nak usha tempat ni…lama dah….so bila aku tengok calendar event…I came across her name. So I chose her night to be our night to see the place. It was worth it.

We will definitely come again…

Best giller! Need I say more?

No Black Tie @ 24 November 2010

silly me...

kadang2 aku lost of logical sense...
sebagai contoh semalam...

sorang member kata.."hari ni dia tutup"
aku kata "hari ni dia tutup? padan lah dia tak angkat phone semalam?"

?

u see....i don't know how i relate today and yesterday is the same day... i got confuse myself sometimes...silly me :)

i failed at ATV

Right now i'm frustrated because i failed to maneuver the ATV.It's not that i didn't have the energy or the drive to do it, God i hate to admit this; i denied that i have some wrist problem or what would a doctor once said to me, early athritis.

But ATV defeat my denial of my having this 'special'setback :(

I was okay when we drove to the waterfall. it's about 45mins to 1hour drive. although i started to feel the pain of using my right hand to press the fuel and grip the back brake, i still managed to operate the ATV. My wrist was tested quite to the limit when we had to use the brake to drove down the slippery trail. I still forced myself to bear it.

When we were at the waterfall, i was quite worried if i were unable to drive the ATV back to the centre. The wayback trail is the same as we drove earlier. Somehow, we used all the strength we had, but still we were determined to drive it to the finish line.

I was not the kind of person to give up easily especially in sports-related. I had it all, but on the way back, my wrist getting sore and sore. The guide noticed it, and asked me whether i could proceed. I was still in denial, instead of saying 'yes', i said 'i dont know'. So the guide still let me and i still operated the ATV myself. The brake was getting harder to grip.

At one point, the guide asked again, i asked him back "jauh lagi ke?" because i really wanted to make to the finish line. he said "jauh" .

It was my breaking point. I knew if i kept insisting on continuing to drive the ATV, i would not just injure my wrist, but i might fall into the gaung or cause more injury. And so the guide controlled the ATV and i just be the 'passenger'. I was not that happy. i didnt get to control the ATV to the centre.

There was this quite funny thing happened. My ATV was in the stop mode on a quite down the hill position. The guide stood beside me to see if i was okay. So my both hands were gripping the brakes from moving down the slope. I swore i had gripped hard on both brakes but the ATV very slowly moved :p inch by inch haha. That was when he decided to be my driver.

Now, i do understand the feeling of a football player not being able to play on the field, because of his leg injury. As much as he wants to play, he knows he would injure himself more and might cause him not to be able to play anymore.

As much as my mind, my heart and my strength want it, my athritis would not allow it. If my right wrist is as strong as my left wrist, i would have made it to the finish line. Exhaustion won't stop me from making it to the finish line. Athritis is. Bencinya..

I would want to do it again just to make it to the finish line. This time, i think i would wear glove. I got the feeling that gloves would help lessen the sore. I would grip more.

p/s i use to use kain buruk to open a tight bottle. I may not be able to open a mineral water by my bear hand, but when i use kain ke ape ke, i could easily open it. i don't know how the mechanism help me. but it helps.

Is there any good people around here?

"There is nothing impossible in this world."

I hear it once in a while. It never ceases. If it’s true, can anyone or company sponsor my traveling around the world for free and not asking for any return? :)

There are always good people around the world. I believe there is a good sole that wants to pay one's dream come true.

Oprah O Oprah, would you cover my holiday?

p/s please let me live in my fantasy

Miss Nelina Special Rumour

“I heard you were engaged”
a friend shouts in surprise
and caught Miss Nelina
render speechless and hilarious laugh

a year a past
come another surprise
“is she getting married?”
A friend of a friend had asked
And the friend narrates to nelina
this time a bigger jovial ha-ha

Become quite a rumour
To some special gossiper

Would it be “she pregnant?”
Nelina waits till next year
To see the rumour appear
And have another giggle
The series of ridicule tale

TAQWACORES

I was attracted to the word itself…taqwa + hardcore(I assume) = taqwacores (my thinking of how the word came about hehe) That should be good.

I read about taqwacores related article and then I decided to read the book but turn out I could only get the excerpt of the book online which I found it interesting and would actually hook me til the end if I got my hand on the full version.

As much as I am impressed on the writer’s fantasy, I feel ‘takut’ too. If only the writer or characters are not muslim, It would be ok…in fact it might seems cool. I may laugh but then instantly I would like ‘takutnye’ and the feeling of ‘meremang’ come next. The book is like joking around with the religion but then the happenings in the book are now reality. How the writer have the ‘courage’ to make fun with Islam and how I wish he could show his ‘courage’ in other form by standing up for Islam. We in Malaysia, we don’t make fun of our religion no matter what religion; I guess it is not our culture. Or am I not aware of this changing? A much as people break the religion’s law, they won’t innovate it to be ‘better’.

What I meant by innovate..example from the book , when someone azan, the writer instill his fantasy by playing the electric guitar tuning to azan rhythm. It sounds cool but at the same time scary. Or a hijab girl living with all boys in a house. When I say hijab, they could not even see her eyes for she covers all her entire self. Macam orang arab.Yet she is otak brutal. Another one, is actually became history of muslim world when the writer’s character Rabeya lead the prayers whom her ma’mum are all guys.

This one female reader read the book and got inspired to the idea of leading a prayer and then in 2005 I think, the reader’s friend or someone she knew named amina wadud lead a prayer.

These innovations look good in human sense but not religion sense. The settings are in cool relaxing environment, that’s why you will feel cool too. That’s why you will ask, why not? (sesaat je la, lepas tu rasa mana boleh :p) the writer makes the innovations feel normal and acceptable. I can understand why readers agree.


From this book, the readers start the punk muslim or punk islam idealism. The readers somehow get the calling even though I would believe the writer would not imagine to be this far. Now they have taqwacores music.

Again, if these happenings are not in Islam setting, that would be cool. If only you can change the law by your ruling, then any religion would be so confusing. The secular should curve around religion, not religion to curl around secular right? That’s how life should be lead in normal circumstances.

Here I am giving opinions. I am not pious. I am average (or I presume).

kembali berswimming dan elizabeth gilbert

after 1 year of retiring....akhirnya aku kembali berswimming :) pancit seh...mcm dah tak reti berenang lak...tercungap2 :p

- eat pray love -

jika itu dikatakan depression, takut untuk aku rasa seperti itu...hope it never happens...pelik kan bila semua bende dia ada, dia tetap rasa kosong, rasa depress..bila dia jumpa kebahagiaan yg dia cari...dia sebenarnya aku rasa mencari cinta....agaknya dia tak lah cinta mana kat first husband kot. end up, pencarian dia selesai bila dia jumpa mr brazil.

tertarik aku bila dia cari tuhan, aku pikir...end up manusia akan tetap cari tuhan bila jalan sudah buntu. dia ada, tinggal kadang2 kita yg tak pegi jumpa dia. aku yg tak pegi jumpa dia.

aku rasa macam boleh paham je perasaan dia yg dlm depression tu...tapi travel life dia memang untuk dia dan dia sahaja. kalau orang lain yg travel sebijik macam dia buat, blum tentu sama hasilnye.. tapi kalau aku, aku nak lalui 'eat' process dia. elizabeth mempunyai 'eat' life yang menarik :)

aku usha gak ketut liyer tu...haha...pawang yg menarik. tapi aku orang asia, rasanya penah jumpa lebih hebat dari dia...bila orang itu boleh 'melihat' basically semua?

No matter what, ''dia'' juga menang

aku pergi jumpa lhdn nak settlekan tunggakan aku yg dah berapa kali tertunggak..dan dah berapa kali bayar....still diorang kejar aku kata aku tak bayar....tahun taksiran 2006 and 2007....boleh tak tengah musim raya, surat pun datang.
geram pun geram....aku tau lawan dengan diorang mcm mana sekalipun mesti tak menang. tp aku nak diorang explain kat aku jugak.

taksiran 2006 dia kata aku lambat declare. iye. memang aku lmbt declare...sbb frontliner lhdn kat kelana jaya ckp, gaji aku tak sampai 2.5 k lagi...sbb tu aku tak bukak. dia kata tak payah bukak. tp bila da sampai 2.5k, aku bukak jugak all past years files to avoid predicament in future. a good citizen i am.

so, ikutkan bukan salah aku...salah frontliner yg tak de standard answer kat rakyat...i dont think they have training pun...they gave different answer to my frens with the same question we asked.

despite dia tau dia salah, tapi aku still kene bayar :( bodoh tak...malas aku nak fight for rm40...nanti dia charge denda lagi bila aku lambat bayar...

and for 2007, they claimed for tunggakan bonus...hmmm....dah tahun 2010 kot...ungkit la tahun yang dekat skit...

.....

What would you ask of me papa if you were beside me now? I suppose “when are you going to get married?” That is what mama used to ask too :)

It has been 16 years of separation. I am sure you have a comfortable place there.

When are you going to visit me again? in my dream of course :)

miss you..and love you always..

My wife got Married

yup, you got it right. i too have the exact notion. a different from any other movie, the concept that is. the core argument of the story is very much different and against the norm.
the wife character, i must say is such a character. she can say such abnormal things to sound normal, quite convincingly. the potray of the relationship is much related to football. one should watch it.
impressive direction.witty. a good choice of adaptation from a book.

and i thought the game is today

aku ingat malam ni (2am nanti) lawan spain vs german...rupa-rupanya pagi tadi (2am tadi) lawannye :(
aku selalu confius, for example pagi khamis dengan pagi rabu when it comes to 12am-4am. 2am pagi tadi, orang panggil khamis dah. aku still panggil rabu. sbb tu aku terlepas huhuhu

Muntahan Alexis

Aku suka makan mewah ala2 setiap kali masuk gaji. It is supposed to grant yourself for kerja kuat :p . So aku pun bersama nad makan di alexis kat the garden. Aku suka juga pilih makanan yg namanya pelik supaya dapat rasa makanan yang lain, nanti balik2 spaghetti, spaghetti, spagehtti.

So aku decide makan lemon risotto. Aku tau risk dia ada. What if tak sedap? Aku akan makan je. Biasa je cuba2 tak sedap mana pun, bayar je yg mahal. Tapi takpe, makan je.

Bila hidangan berharga RM34 datang, first impression aku tak cantik dan kosong. Tp aku positif, sedap kot rasanya. Ala2 rupa bubur.

Bila makan.....

Aku cakap dekat nad tak sedap. Nad makan. Muka nad telah memberitahu aku betapa tak sedapnye risotto itu. Serius tak sedap. Aku cuba nak makan separuh, tapi tak boleh. 5 sudu jek kot aku telan. Lepas tu aku ketepikan.

Lalu aku lukiskan senyuman songsang di risotto. Hoping waiter/manager dia nampak dan tau aku tak enjoy juadah RM34 itu.
Lihat lah hasilnye.

Tapi aku rasa waiter yg angkat tu pun tak nampak, aku ikut dengan lirikan mata aku waiter tu ke dapur, dia tak tengok pun. Uhuhuhuh...tak berjaya. Ingat kan da cukup menangkap mata da lukisan aku... hehe



Aku cakap kat nad bila keluar dari restaurant "aku rasa macam aku makan muntah" huhu
Aku gambarkan betapa tak sedapnye tak sedap itu. Selalu tak sedap pun boleh makan lagi la....ni tahap below tak sedap.

p/s sebagai gantian tak sedap itu kepada sedap, aku ajak nad gi delifrance makan bread pudding. Terbaik! :) cover semua perasaan tak sedap itu.

CarameL

A fine movie from lebanon. All main characters have their own distinctive characters. I like the supporting roles of mr. policeman and old grandma, lily too. they add colours to the movie :)

through the movie, i learnt the lebanese cultures or perhaps arab cultures as general.

P/S Sweet and nice lah movie nih...ala2 rasa caramel :p
Kalau nak tengok something different, this is one of it.

Oh Boy Oh Boy..

There is a boy I met through his writing or should I say blogging.. his writing is somewhat witty and he claimed to have porno element in his writing but I found him to have liking for cursing sometimes. But those porno or curses are just seasoning in blogging but his vocabulary is impressive, even I had to google the words sometimes :) His maturity is quite rare for 'man' kind and for his age, is another wonder. Truth to be told, he caught my attention.

His loves for books are so obvious and the authors of the books are usually the dead people. It’s funny that I have a feeling to actually want to meet a person like him. I mean, he is just a boy who I strongly sense at the age of 20 or 21, I deduce this based on his entries I read so far (what a superb gut-feeling I have :p)

I must admit, he has something that I want in a guy. Most guys I met lack of that very element or is it because I don’t talk too much to them to notice IT or is it because in writing you can think, but when it comes to conversing, it is something else. Or another way of saying it; can someone writing like that be the same when he speaks? What a reasonable doubt.

taste of GREAT movies

i watch selected good movies..and the good ones are the best according to my personal taste of great movies ever since i watch korean/japanese ala2 semasa zaman mmu til now..

For korean all time best movies
1. A moment to remember
2. Daisy

Korean Serial Drama
1. All About Eve
2. Iris

For japanese all time best movies
1. none yet that terpahat in my heart

Japanense Serial Drama
1. Good Luck
2. Antique

these great ones never fail to entertain me or hook me up even if i get the chance to watch for the second time or the third time or ...or... :)

Smack Down

Not to brag or anything, i always good in whatever i do...let say..never been the last place unexpectedly. Therefore i dont know the feeling of being the last.In any event; singing, dancing, running, studying, sports etc. i always perform, for solo or in a group, always being satisfied by at least the average.

But today, when i went for dance class, jazz mania to be exact..i failed totally :(
i mean i luuuvvvv dancing. as much as i am slow in catching up the steps, i never the slowest and in the end i got it.

But this evening i was the loser. this is my personal ranking.i could feel it. it was so obvious the other 5 students could catch up with just 2 demonstrations of each step by the instructor.i failed pathetically.

i admit i am not a pro but like i said 'average' is the lowest in my benchmarking. while i'm typing this, i still feel double stated :( (hope to boost up again my spirit after blogging)

The feeling is so sedih gillerrr! is this how anyone felt in class or competition when he/she is at the last place when he/she knows he/she can do it? no offense, is this how orang yang last dalam class rasa? being crushed?? well, i felt it.

truth to be told, i dont like it :(
i dont like it when the things i like to do, yet i fail to do it successfully.

if bende tu memang tak reti langsung, is expected la. for the things i dunno from zero like swimming, i still can do it when the instructor shows you the style repeatedly (when i say repeatedly...it means more than 3 times..)
That i turn to be a good swimmer.

ada orang sekali tunjuk da ble ingat n hafal the step, i am jenis 10 kali tunjuk baru ble ingat. but the hasil of the perfect step will be the same whether you are fast or slow learner.

i guess macam mengira or mengeja, slow or fast, end up that person can kira 1,2,3 and eja dengan a,b,c at the end of the class.

serius boleh rasa cikgu tu taknak ajar orang yg tak tau basic or slow. i did go for other dancing class and that cikgu will ajar you till you catch up the step, but tonight instructor, she can only teach the pros. i mean she is pro but a pro who cannot teach beginners.

no offense to the instructor, i think i am not her perfect student and she is not my perfect teacher. so i guess, to be positive, i have to find the perfect teacher to teach me dancing perfectly :) (hhmm....boost up balik ke semangat aku? :p)

seeing other people struggling to catch the step is what i used to see, i sympathize for them but never underestimate them, in fact you feel like you want to help them.

i thought i really knew the feeling of people that cannot catch up until i was in their shoes yesterday, it was far from what i imagined.
That moment, i was the one who struggled, people watching me sympathizing. well now i know the looks on people faces, as much as they have sympathy towards us, they will never know the tearing feeling until they feel themselves.

stress seh.. semua org tengok and ko buat tah ape2. giler tak boleh cope and terasa ke'loser'an nye...macam hati di smack down.

(rasa macam tak habis je aku bermadah :D ok lah...i stop here! )

The Scandalicious Issue @ PJLA

The play was not more or less hilarious. it was just hilarious. All in all, i enjoyed it. The cast did very well in acting and singing; the facial expressions were precisely expressed. i was content :)

En. Ahmad Izham Omar

En. Ahmad Izham Omar is one of many people i somehow respect and admire due to his witty way of thinking and how he sees into different perspective from other people, from long before, til now, quite apart from the norm. he sets somehow a better standard to music industry than before. that is how i see him.
i started to notice his existence when i wondered who is the person found the talent in innuendo and too phat..a very distinctive music groups...
then i heard they were under label Positive Tone. and finally i saw the man behind it all, En Ahamd Izham Omar, a very simple person. he is a plain in appearance, somehow very relate to normal people outside the music industry.
it's a cliche if people behind music then, they had coloured hair, or dress fashoinable like, but En Izham is ordinary.
I remembered he received an award on stage and he thanked his wife. i think that was the first time i saw him.
now as i read his blog, i feel i can get to know more about him, i found his writing with regard to life, work and family very interesting. it is a view in the eyes of a mere person yet he is a CEO. His blog is funny and i like to read about his children too. a father and son/daughter relationship thingy, which i miss a lot from my past.
I admire him then, i admire him now. Hope to shake his hand one day :)

Broga Hills

I only slept for about 20mins and woke up at 3.45am to get ready for our hiking trip. Broga Hills in Semenyih took 1 hour (approximate) from KL. Around 5.45am we started to hike the hills. Aiming to watch the sun rise even though we knew we couldn't see the sun rise sbb kene blok dgn bukit :p but we managed to get up there within 1 hour. Tired yes!
I even got souvenir when i fell - with 5 scrathes on my arm. i thought i step on a rock, tp takde pun batu kat situ, silap judgement, so aku terduduk kat semak lalang :D maklum la, malam pekat sangat, tak nampak. Aku buat moment tu semua orang ter freeze seketika hehe...
People brought dogs with them, I saw some children and some elderly. I never expected these groups :p but they changed my perception. I was quite amazed. This is what i learn up on the hill.
The scenary is plain i guess, but views are subjective. i'm not enjoying the sight that much, but enjoyed people taking pictures and posed :)

The trip @ 10 Apr 2010.

what box?

"can i see the box?" a little boy were asking...
"what box?" a stunned woman replied.
"actually i want to see inside the box," he added.
"even though i'm the owner of the box, i sometimes never know what's inside it.at times, the box is empty.at times, it gives you answers. may not come on the instant, but may come eventually.you ask several times, the answers may varies too." she smiled to the boy.
now the boy was stunned.
"i am asking about this box" as he pointed to the box.
"ohh" sheepishly she continued "of course."

and she was describing about the heart to him. poor thing.

memang x best : very the under haha

smlm bila tgk wayang, aku ada 2 pilihan...solomon kane or under the mountain. walaupun aku nak tgk solomon kane, tp sbb smlm nak tgk yg ringan2 punya pasal, aku tgk la under the mountain.
my advice, cerita ni kategori 'jangan tengok'.
siap masa tgh tgk, aku boleh appreciate citer melayu yg tak berapa nak best, jd better dr citer under the mountain ni.
kualiti mcm zmn 90an, jln cerita perrgghhh.....tp tak leh lawan citer plg tak best, beneath still water rasa aku. itu mmg citer yg...
sekian

how easy our joy being ripped away by unhappiness

my happiness of getting rm450 in one of my handbag was quickly turn to despair when i found out quite a few minutes later that my HKD1580 was rotten by the anai2. BENCINYA!!
rupa-rupanya our rented apartment is dwelled by termite. lecehnya!
rugi aku beratus-ratus :( hhmm...

pabila umur tekaan melebihi umur realiti

lately aku tgk ada eye beg or puffyness and dark circle kat mata aku. huwa! aku tak suka haha... pegi la body shop smlm, tanya sales girl tu pasal mata aku...dia recommend la....ada la aku gurau " da tua da saya" and she asked me " akak, umur berapa?" gatal aku suruh dia teka...dia teka 30 lebih! aaaa!
"umur kita 28, saya nmpk tua ke?" ter cuak lak budak tu ekekekke

slalu nye orang teka umur aku, umur yg muda-muda saje dr umur hakiki....so bila teka terlebih...over the top lak tu, terperanjat gak aku :p

tp kan budak tu, walaupun make up agak tebal, aku nmpk je dark circle kat mata dia haha! (nak juga bg seri dgn budak tu :p)

tp aku justify kenape dia kata begitu...maybe kerana rambut freezy ku haha!

lg satu…aku mmg susah nak terima org pakai contact lense berwarna warni. Kalau grey or dark brown skrg baru aku leh terima, so warna2 terang mcm blue tak ble terima lg. terasa mcm org tu ‘wanna be’ hehe… bukan ape…aku akan terenung anak mata palsu dlm lautan lense biru nye and org tu pun ble terperasan aku tgh teralik melihat matanya. Nmpk pelik la. Macam obvious kepalsuannya.Aku rasa budak sales tu pun ble perasan. Nasib baik aku terbangun dari keasyikan aku yg asyik nak tgk anak matanya :D semacam ada magnet mata2 lense ni dgn aku. Kalau warna2 asli nmpk real skit.

Becoming Jane

Watching Becoming Jane yesterday, somehow triggered me of ordinary questions. How deserving one man's love to another woman? How woman define love, like Jane who fond of wit and wisdom and how the man she awaited could prickle her mind, somewhat par to her level state of mind and soul. Soon she found him, but never could marry him despite the strong attraction but due to financial and never had she met another suitable suitor. Tom Lefroy however, married and to honour their love I presumed, he named his eldest daughter Jane.

I wonder if I, myself will Becoming Jane. I do not like the last part of not tying the knot to someone I love and I never become married and he marries another.

But I do like the part where she met the pursuer that has the worth of intellect and heart she waited for.

At least, these are what I interpret from the movie.
As for what i feel about Jane Austen, the movie prompted me to dig more about this significant female :)

12 January 2010

I was not celebrating as usual. i thought..why not do something different that day. so, i went for a trip during that point of time. i just spent my time at Disneyland Hong Kong. The cartoon figures and staff greeted me. I read all the wishes in Facebook and sms. i was thinking, quite some wishes i got :p

Apabila mahu melebihi malu

Kadang2 bende yg kita nak buat, kita rasa malu...takut ape orang kata.

ketika itu aku memikirkan ape org pk pasal aku kalau aku buat bende tu. dan aku pun tau apa aku rasa kalau aku buat bende tu. aku mesti rasa sedih. org akan pk kesian bdk itu.

lebih perasaan sedih dari malu kerana aku tau hakikat kenapa aku buat begitu, kerana takde teman.

tapi bila perasaan mahu lebih dari segala-galanya, aku jd excited nak buat bende itu. reason pertama kerana tiket free. reason kedua kerana tak puas tgk sherlock beraksi.

lama sgt tunggu teman2 yg ada, aku jd tak tahan hehe. so esok aku akan tonton solo. tak terpikir langsung ape orang pk nanti.

above all i feel excited and unexpectactly i'm ok with it :D

dari JB ke Kuala Lumpur

what worse could happen when you ride a bus apart from accident?
tayar pancit, bas lambat, bas rosak.
well, i found a new one to add to the list. aircond rosak.
i rode a transnational bus plated number 1308.

the driver kept saying the aircond is not rosak but it is so obvious to the passengers that the air cond is rosak. ble tak dia cakap, kalau malam, sejuk..sampai penumpang suruh padam air cond, tp kalau tengah hari, panas skit...kalau hujan baru dia sejuk.

i mean, function air cond memberi kesejukan regardless of panas terik hujan badai right? so apsal lak ada senario kalau tengah hari, kalau malam bla bla

the passengers memang sweat la kan...mcm dkt padang pasir. blower panas je ada. air cond takde. end up our trip to kene bukak emergency rooftop for air ventilation.

big boss taknak bg back up bus sbb driver pegi ckp kat bos on the phone in front of us "tak, tak, air cond tak rosak. mcm biasa."

macam biasa??? come on! aku penah naik bus bnyk kali...i know aircond bus mcm mana.

penumpang mogok dekat macap taknak naik bus, tp solution takde. aku tanya driver, ape solution. dia kata kita tunggu penumpang yg taknak naik tadi tu nak naik ke tak. kalau dia tak nak naik, kita jalan.

!#>$">?!#@$>!#>$@!! what a crazy solution?!!? bodohnye jalan penyelesaian. padan la ko driver :(

after 1 hour waiting, we had no choice but to continue our hot sweating trip to kl.
ada la gak hujan renyai2 masa on da way, but hell mana ble hilang kan rasa panas.

everybody turun bas bila sampai muka masam. no thanks to the driver.

aku ada ckp kat pakcik tu " by right function air cond tak kira siang malam, at least ada rasa sejuk skit"

he replied "itu kata awak. air cond tak rosak."
obviously driver tak tau makna air cond walaupun da bwk setahun bas tu.

The Pester Is Gone

Finally...the pester is no longer bothering me.
Alhamdulillah..