Hope is Good

Sighing for the loss of hope
Heart feels bitter
To let go is to mutter
By words are better

Can I contain the burden?
I can just let it crawl behind those walls
Cause no, I can’t, let it through that door
Hopeless.

I am tired, I am dreaded
Like a flying swallow with sorrow
Aimless.

Don’t know how long the bird can hold
Just hang on
There must be something falls upon you
For you

I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

hang on.

you just hang in there.

aku dan tingkap kereta

tingkap kereta belah passanger side belah depan, selalu buat hal dgn aku tanpa ia sengaja atau tidak hmmm...then again its takdir :) 2 kali kene pecah. this time tingkap tersangkut tak mau naik and turun.. is like tingkap is not in its place.. mcm tak kene hold. pegi kedai, previous gum, diorang guna gam industri. so kene charge RM50 to gum back front door glass holder. tak tau la kene tipu atau tak...but i think kalau takat gam, rm20-rm30 top. but what to do.. google pun takde people share about it.. so i decided to share for other people sake :)

to take on the positive side, at least tingkap tak kene ganti :)

ada budak itu ;)

...and i really appreciate her effort at keeping in touch..she is a natural 'relationship maintainer' (so i call it) with everybody...she might not notice it..but as for me.. by doing that, she is a special friend.

she has her 'sengal'ness but dont get me wrong..sengal here is a good thing :) (in my book of life). i myself has a sengal behaviour, a different one...(i cannot but to mention it zi... you is an example of another sengal friend of mine hihi) i like sengal people because they are different in their own way..

thank you farah for being a friend of mine :D


p/s this evening..you gave me a beautiful handbag (or a clutch; medium size - according to my interpretation of size) :) then you treated me with wash and blow hair! (tersegan aku hihi) - baik sangat kawan nih.. and this is not even the top of the list why i appreciate you ;p

rumusan 2012

my 2012 summary.. some polka dots of happiness are there during the year but not long lasting. the polka dots might be going out all 7 of us (shopping, eating, laughing); having lunch with fara (after long no in touch hihi) or went to jpo with mama or seeing my siblings and relatives.. these give short sparks of joy.
really really want my 2013 to be long lasting happy-related surprises. AMIN.

pengakuan

saya into yuna's music, faizal tahir's music. they  have brilliant music composition.
saya nak collaborate dgn yuna (tanpa ada ape2 ilmu music..boleh ke? ;p) - ikut tour usa dia foc best gak haha!
saya minat lakonan joseph gordon levitt..mmg versatile. kalau pelakon malaysia, saya letak nama beto kusyairi. saya sekarang minat lakonan mereka berdua. saya minat tahap berangan nak berlakon dgn mereka berdua. (juga tanpa ada ape2 ilmu lakonan) these 2 are amazing actors.

so there goes my declaration. :)

next sakit is sakit mata..

nama sakit mata tu 'pseudo membranous conjunctivitis' (mind the spelling...malas nak check ;p). somehow i survived the pain.. you name it.. anything to do with eye irritation, eye discomfort.. i got it all at one go - to the part which my iris was blurred due to the tear aka koyak. the eyes became very dry...i blinked so much. my best friend was the lubricant which of course apart from other steroid tear drops..it felt like you are so thirsty and you drink and drink but tak hilang haus pun...that is the similar case to my eyes...thirst of moisture.
i endured it for about 1 month and a half..
(june/july)

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every now and then now...i got somewhat similar symptom as previous conjunctivitis..but due to many visits to the opthalmologist..i was diagnosed with dry eyes syndrome. it is a great relieve that it is not the psudo membraneous thingy, so no steroid.. but dry eyes are harmful too for long term.

from once a fortnight, jadi once a week, jadi 3 hari sekali mata jadi bengkak, merah, feel sandy-like inside the eyes, itchy yg plg power and burning... tak gile mata?

the irony is that.. doctor suggested masuk plug pulak dalam mata.. i managed to run from tube in the ears...now a plug in my eyes?!?! kalau boleh taknak la kan...isnt it ironic...a little too ironic ;p (know the song? haha)

so i studied anything to do with dry eyes and i decided to consume vitamins... major ones are the famous billbery, the second is omega-3 and GLA the third would be lutein,. i feel like i am a master dalam perihal mata sekarang :) ask me bebeh haha!

baru 2-3 hari makan ubat.. surprise ada juga improvement :) aku decide sendiri dose yg aku ambil.. i know my body better.. so aku ambil only for a short term... bila dah better or normal...i will just consume once a day..